Hey solitary girl!
Listen, Rough patch, a bad day, a major setback. Sometimes, it seems like one thing goes wrong after another. And another, and another.
Sometimes an unexpected challenge or an obstacle might come your way, and you find yourself stressing out, worrying and not knowing what to do. And, some days, you just have nothing. Zero motivation, no creativity. All of a sudden, you’re being plagued with self-doubt.
◇You think you have to be strong all the time.
◇You think you’re not allowed to cry, to admit that you’re not okay.
◇You feel insecure at times.
"It’s okay to not be okay"
This is something that I’ve been struggling with for the last couple of days. I don’t know if these strange and sudden changes in my mood are part of the grieving process , I don’t know if things will ever go back to the way they used to be. What I do know, is that admitting that I’m not doing too well, even to myself, wasn’t easy.
Why?
Why do we always feel the need to be strong? Why do we feel guilty when taking a time-out? I was overwhelmed with such guilt. How can I sit here and cry and feel sorry for myself, when I have some much to be grateful for? There’s so much work I need to get done, I don’t see anyone else making excuses for themselves.
THE LITTLE GIRL IS FEELING UNINSPIRED
Know that it’s okay. It’s okay to not be okay. Don’t resist feeling “bad” just because it seems like you’re the only one who feels lonely, or lost or unmotivated- you’re not. Don’t worry about what everyone else is doing and remember that we all know what it’s like to “not be okay” even if most of us don’t talk about it. All those feelings are normal, we all go through this sometimes. Is it a fun place to be? Fuck no. But it doesn’t last forever.
Whenever I’m feeling like this, I get paralyzed with self-doubt. “Oh God, I write about mindfulness and being happy and staying present and here I am, sitting on my bathroom floor, crying, because I had a bad day, wtf is wrong with me?!” In moments like this, I feel almost as if my authenticity is being compromised. It’s just a confusing place to be.
If there’s one thing that I’ve learned during the last couple of days though, it’s that the more you resist feeling “bad”, the worse you’ll feel. Yes, you have to keep trying to get better, but don’t force it- allow yourself to heal and learn to be patient with yourself. Think of those bad days, like a passing cloud- you can’t see the sun, but you know it’s there. You know that eventually, it will come out.
It’s okay to not be okay. You’re allowed to change your mind, to take a break or leave a situation you don’t feel comfortable in. There’s no need to blame yourself for any of those things just like there’s no need to feel bad about… feeling bad.
We should all be allowed to fall apart sometimes so that we can find ourselves all over again.
_CHARU🚶♀️
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